December 2008
31 posts
“To know you is to love you, and I don’t want to love you anymore.”
December Eighteenth, Two Thousand Eight.
As I await my departure from the Golden state, I feel a bit torn. I think, surprisingly, I am going to miss being away from Northridge. I knew I’d miss the quirkiness of Los Angeles. I knew I’d go through a Hollywood Record Store run withdrawal. I’d miss the flashy lights of Sunset & Vine, but Northridge? The quaint little suburb I call home? Never in a million years did I think I’d feel a...
“You Have To Be Your Own Best Friend”
– Dianne Von Furstonberg
I’m starting to realize that no one takes me seriously in Illinois.
And it’s sad.
But, at the same time,
just what I needed to know.
W.O.H.
With Nutcracker season in full swing, I can’t help but think back and remininsce over my days as a JSSB “Jude”, shuffling through the snowy cobble stone of the square, giggling with friends over the latest ACT II mishap.
I remember making the decision to take my senior year off to focus on theater, and the fact that I wasn’t leaving JSSB, I was leaving Nutcracker. I was...
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"Come Pick Me Up" Ryan Adams
I had someone tell me the other day that I was being “dramatic” when I stated the fact that I’ll most likley be single for a long time. And something about that worries me a little. Have we really come to an age where being alone is ‘dramatic’? There is this trend in the world, a trend that’s peaking right now. We must all find someone. Anyone! Everyone is...
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God Bless River Phoenix.
With the recent deaths of celeb siblings (Mark Ruffalo’s brother, McCauley Culkin’s sister), I have been thinking about how empty it would feel to lose a sibling. Here’s the thing, losing a parent (in a sense) is inevitable. Losing a friend is tragic, but losing a sibling is something even greater than tradgedy.
I have a feeling losing a sibling is like losing a child....
“It’s all here for you as long as you choose to stay,
It’s all here...”
He Ain't Heavy, He's My Brother.
This Month’s Must Have
Michael Mularz
we lined up to receive our
Scholastic books we had ordered
I let her go ahead of me
when it got down to the line’s end,
she approached the teacher who held but two copies of this month’s
must
have
I was behind her, the last student, the line’s end
she informed the teacher that she had ordered two copies of this month’s
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Wishful Thinking.
Sometimes things don’t go the way I plan.
But what fool really thinks plans mean anything? Sometimes I wish I could stop making them. I wish I could go through daily activities and not expect things so many times. I wish I didn’t break my own heart so many times. I wish people didn’t change. I wish everyone introduced their flaws with their name. But where would the discovery...
"Thirteen" Big Star
To put it simply, I could write volumes and volumes on the book Love Is A Mix Tape. If I didn’t have self control, I would purely write praises all day, avoiding to live my own life completely. In the terms of author extrordanaire/hopeless romantic Rob Sheffield, the memoir describes the endless cycle of “life and loss, one song at a time”. In short, if you haven’t read...
"Porcelain Fists" Ingrid Michaelson
Tell me you’ve had this happen.
In this moment, I’m stuck between two worlds. Insecure and secure.
I have always been on a path of insecurity. When I say insecurity, I don’t mean self doubt, I mean the track of chance, the “road less taken” (for you Robert Frost fans out there). I like taking chances, I like believing that someday, somehow inexplicably, my chances...
“Maybe the human animal has contributed really nothing to the universe but...”
– Tom Robbins
And I Can't See Why You'd Want To Live Here.
It’s safe to say I stray from the norm here at CSUN. In such a diverse community, I feel proud to standout. I moved to Northridge from Chicago in August. It baffles people when I amaze the people of humble Northridge with my midwestern heart. People like to ask me to pronounce words like “apples” and “laughing” to hear my kitschy Chicago drawn out a’s, a highlight of the Chicago accent. I clearly...
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“This is love, isn’t it? When you notice someone’s absence and hate...”
– Jonathan Safran Foer
[SCENE IDEA]
So there’s this scene where these two are on like their 2nd or 3rd date at a restauarant and the boy makes this completely geek-chic romantic move by paying someone to change the juke box to play a precious love ballad. And the scene turns almost silent, giving off the vibe that the song is the beginning of something far greater than a few dates; its that romantic buzz that surrounds only special...
“‘you know when you’ve found it, and it’s something for sure, ‘cause you feel It...”
– Damien Rice
"Sunken Treasure" WILCO
I’ve started to realize how much I hate uneven friendships. Here’s the thing, I have yet to figure out when that defining moment comes along where one is more interested than the other. It’s sad to think about; a commonality of relationships is moving on. Part of me doesn’t want to know that moment, for I feel like it would discourage me from working on relationships. Also, I think I’m fine with...